Thursday, May 27, 2010

Thanks Thursday




Today (Thursday), Will be the first Thursday in a long series on this blog that will be given the title "Thanks Thursday". I love Thursdays. They arnt Wednesdays, horrible because of their horrible spelling, and the fact that they are the middle of the week) and they arnt Fridays (Although widely considered a good day, Fridays usually are magnates for tests and big projects). So Thursday is my Favorite day. By Thursday you know that you can survive the rest of the week, tests are less common, and its just such a lay-ed back day. 'So...' you may be thinking. 'Now that im a believer in the Greatness of Thursdays whats going to happen every Thursday?' that Is a very good question. On each Thursday I will be posting new Photos that I have taken over the week. So to Start things off I have 4 photos to share with you. **Crosses fingers** I hope this works. hmm... Well I guess your just gonna have to look up to see them. Their all from my garden today. I hope ya are enjoying them. Maybe. 

Monday, May 24, 2010

Dreamlands- from the Blog of Ursula V

Yes. I know it has been a while. I doubt you really care, Mr. Im-Not-Actually-There.  I do hope that you will forgive me (if you do care that is. if you don't then Ignore this apology)  This passage taken from  Ursula V's blog. It is not mine. I can never hope to ever be this creative. there is a link HERE and at the bottom of the posting if you wish to read more. But i must warn you, the full blog is not for those of us who have not reached puberty. (meaning its not for the kiddies. not that kiddies are reading this. But you can never be to careful) 


"Dreamlands


The Dreamlands are, simultaneously, both the easiest of the otherworlds to get into and one of the hardest.

Heaven is presumably harder to reach, but people tend not to come back, so you don’t get many firsthand reports. Hell, of course, is available at any crossroads or to anyone with a black goat and enthusiasm, and to get into the Dark all that you need to do is be extremely unlucky when you turn out the lights.

Faerie’s borders are rather porous, what with the fairy rings and the mounds and many of the borders stutter back and forth at twilight. Getting out again is the hard bit. Fairies themselves can pass back and forth with ease, but while there are rumored to be openings to the Dreamlands inside the borders of Faerie, the fairies don’t use them much. Fairies are vain, self-centered and above all controlling. Being in situations where they don’t have the upper hand itches at their skin like sandpaper and iron filings. They do not dream themselves, and prefer to be elegant, cool and amused at the bumblings of humans. The mysteries of Dreamland are too much larger, the beauties too strange and shocking, and no fairy anywhere has ever liked to be shown up by their surroundings.

So there is a very small Seelie-Court-in-Exile inside the Dreamlands, but they almost never go home again.

There are also demons in the Dreamlands, who have grown tired of Hell (this is less common than you think.) They are soft-spoken and polite here, and uninterested in souls. They are uglier than fairies, and make better coffee. If one offers to travel with you, accept.

The easiest way to get into the Dreamlands is the usual one that every dreamer knows–to curl up in bed and fall asleep. And dream.

This doesn’t always work. Actually this very rarely works. Not all dreams grant one access to the Dreamlands. Very few of them do. Sleep is a vast ocean, through which dreamers swim alone, and only a few ever wash up on the shores of the Dreamlands. (There are predators in that ocean, but they are fortunately few. Parasites are rather more common. The thing that follows you, and you fight it off and drop rocks on it and hit it with trains and it just won’t die? That’s a fairly common parasite of dreams, rather like a remora. You can kill them permanently with wormwood and salt, or absinthe if you’ve got it. They’re harmless enough, and hardly ever follow anyone back to the waking world.)

Most dreams are only what they appear to be–absurdly intricate mixes of experience and memory, manifestations of anxiety, bits of racial memory. The one where you’re late for class and probably naked? No one needs to go to the Dreamlands for that. The inhabitants are not that interested in seeing humans walk around naked anyway, so it works out better for everybody if you dream that alone in the unlit sea. And some dreams cross all boundaries–practically everyone has the nightmare where their teeth fall out, even species that have only the vaguest anatomical analog to teeth. (Birds dream of their feathers falling out, but it doesn’t seem to be related.) But it doesn’t happen in the Dreamlands.

But all oceans have shores, and on the shores of this ocean lies a place much more real than sleep. And now and then a dreamer stumbles from the shallows of Sleep and up the wet sands (priests and poets leave no footprints, no one knows why) and into the great grim bulk of dreaming.

Time flows strangely here. So does space. There are places that are always the same, and places that are never the same twice. There are places that human dreamers are drawn to, and places they hardly ever reach. There are cities that are almost (not quite) like cities in the waking world, and landscapes that are almost identical. There is a stretch of desert, a saguaro forest, that is the same, stone by stone, as a place in the Sonoran, and as that stretch is eaten away by developers, the edges of the dream desert cease and become something far more unsettling.

Go up the sands into the city, the one easiest to find. It looks a little like Venice, a little like London, with bits of Kyoto juxtaposed in unsettling ways. There is a stretch of road that is definitely from Shanghai, except that the signs are written in Proto-Indo-European, which you speak fluently now, although you cannot remember it upon waking. The gutters run with rainwater–it has only just stopped raining, it has always only just stopped raining– and the water swirls over stones and old take-out cartons and the backs of bullfrogs.

These are large frogs. They eat mice. The local rats have a truce with them, more or less.

Go south down this street. Step over the puddle at the crossing and the suspicious-eyed frogs. Do not wait for the light. The light has never changed. Birds are nesting in it, a bastardized hybrid of house sparrows and firebirds. They do not immolate, but give off smoke. You can light your cigarettes with them, if you can catch one.

Avoid the alley to your right. It leads to a building with a room full of cages, where the animals inside are starving and have always been starving and it is always your fault. (That dream is real. Did you think it was just yours? There is another room in it, much harder to find, also full of cages. There are frogs in it as well, tiny tree frogs, green as bottle glass. They are breeding. You have not failed them.) The animals are not separable from the cages. They are made of the same stuff as the bars. You will not learn who owns this building. The address on the envelopes lead to a street corner with a statue of the Laughing Buddha. The bills are always paid on time.

Are you still dreaming? Good. Go down the street. It leads a long and winding way. Turn left at the shrine full of coins and bottle caps. Take ten steps, turn back. Follow the street again. It will lead out into the desert now, and the wind that touches you will taste like juniper.

What happens after that is up to you."

And heres the other link i Promised. Tea With the Squash God 


Friday, May 14, 2010

Camera Murders

I am the Great Camera Killer. 


I have lost cameras 3 times over the years


I have been present/blamed for the deaths of 2 cameras. (I wasn't responsible for one killing)


I don't think that I can have any future with cameras if they continue to die. 

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Queen Of Everything (wouldn't that be nice?)

So, on the way to school, I listen to my ipod. (Big surprize I know) While listening to one of my songs- Never Say Never by The Fray - I heard this line and decided that i kinda liked it.
Picture, you're the queen of everything
as far as the eye can see
under your command
i will be your guardian
when all is crumbling
steady your hand

You may have heard this song... Or not but these lines got me thinking. About what would be the worst thing to lose and what I am most afraid of losing. I don't really know why but there it is. I'm not particularly afraid of spiders (although I don't like when they crawl all over my hands) and i don't really have a problem with heights. (Ok maybe a little, but only on roller coasters). I realized that the think i am most afraid of is losing the people i love. Now, I know, I know, your thinking how clique! She really couldn't think of anything better to blog about!? and I kind of agree with you. Of course I'm afraid of losing people. Isn't every one? But , to me, it feels almost like a phobia. When I ever think about losing one of my friends its heartbreaking. ( mind you I'm also afraid of losing my family, but the phobia, if you will, is lesser with family then with friends. If that makes any sense) Personally I'm an anti-person person. I don't like most people. They annoy me. but every once and a while I find someone that I can live with, who doesn't annoy me to much. I'm not saying that Ive found anyone who is perfect (duh) but I can live with these people. Anyways, when this time ends and I lose all these people (guardians if you will. SEE! I just tied the song into what I'm talking about! Yay me!) I will not be a very happy camper. At all. So maybe, we (read as I) should over through the world governments and MAKE ME QUEEN OF EVERYTHING! yes. That's the answer.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

... Everything i had is deleted. And I was good too. A long rant about the horrors of Democracy and America. Now Stop. I know what your thinking. Shes "anti-American" and "Anti-democracy"!We Must but her in Prison for her dastardly thoughts!! And maybe even throw the sofas into the streets!  Well like I said stop. I am neither of those things, I just wish (hope) for a better America. Where the ideas are simple and the biggest problem is a drop in manure production. I guess you could call it a past time, long ago, a time that I dont belong to. So Maybe i should just try to integrate into the "now time" and not think about things that will never happen. Maybe. Or i could buy a small farm in the country and grow things. And then worry about last months declining manure production. Yeah. That would be the life. So like I said I'm not anti- America just anti-now, anti-21st Century.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

The First One!

Well this is me.. I'm jen and right now I'm speaking to an inviable person. You! Its kinda liberating. For Some reason I feel that years from now i will  look back on this post and think "What the crud was I thinking?!" Anyways... Thats about it for now. Chao!